And We’re Back

A scene of clarity from Napa back in January.

A scene of clarity from Napa back in January.

Hello again, blog. Are blogs still a thing? All I know is I’ve been putting off updating and writing this post for too long. I think we’re all guilty of saying we’re going to do something but we never do for whatever reason. All talk, no action. But nothing happens when you take no action. You can talk all you want about all the things you want to change about yourself and your life, but if you don’t go out and actually do something your words mean nothing. You think you’re happy but deep down you know you still feel unfulfilled. So this post is me taking action, moving on, and getting better.

Over one year ago my father suddenly passed away. One day, without warning, he was gone. I didn’t get to say goodbye. I didn’t get to tell him I loved him one last time. I didn’t get to tell him how much I respected him. I’ve been carrying the weight of that loss and those things I didn’t get to do for the last year, and I suppose I always will a little bit. It’s only recently that I realized that holding on to those regrets was also holding me back from being the best version of myself. I told people I was strong, but I also got lazy and complacent, and blamed it on mourning. Somehow I forgot the example of real strength that saw in my dad.

Last September I married my best friend and started on a new path in life. My wife is quite possibly the best person in the whole world, hyperbole notwithstanding. She’s challenges me to be a better person because she knows I can be a better person. Sometimes it’s hard to admit but she knows me better than I know myself. But I am incredibly blessed to have her in my life. I draw so much strength from her when I feel like I have none of my own.

It’s been an emotional journey for me this past year, which brings me back to this blog post. I need to write more. I need to read more. I need to create more. I need to challenge myself more. I want to use this blog again to keep myself accountable to my goals; to take action, move on, and get better. There will be more new art on my Etsy shop, and eventually another Etsy shop focused on design/invitation work. My wife and I have a financial services business where we teach financial literacy to everyone, and I want to grow that business so that we are no longer beholden to a job. I’ve seen so many examples of strong people, from my dad, my mom, and my wife, but now it’s really time to be just as strong myself.

One thought on “And We’re Back

  • March 29, 2016 at 7:46 pm
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    Hi Darren,
    Losing a parent, or anyone in our family, for that matter, affects each of us in different ways. Moving through the mourning process in whatever way serves each of us is so crucial to our healing. Thank you for sharing your commitment to yourself, in honor of your dad’s legacy, and your gratitude to your wife. I really enjoyed your authentic blog post.
    Kara

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